Reduced to depressed 12-year-olds...for a day!

Hi....
Took a break from studies today, after a week of intensive studying. Both my friend and I thought we deserved the break very much, and went over to KLCC, and watched Mumbai Express with my mom. All in all, the movie was an utter disappointment, and I regret having spent my only day free watching one of the suckiest Kamal Haasanmovies ever! So, anyone considering to watch, I'm warning you now...it wasn't my cup of tea! Dunno about you....
Anyways, what happened after that made this day that much worse. I don't want to get into the sappy details, but to ct a long story short, I called Belle and Nithu to find out what had happened during Physics extra class today (Oh yea, forgot to mention I ponteng physics today, dun worry madhu! Dun be shocked, I asked my mom's permission first....she said ok and so we watched the movie) Surprisingly, nothing overly interesting happened, Mr. Khoo never managed to complete what he had claimed. Since most of his students failed to attend the class (phew...), he resorted to marking our papers. I called Nithu and found out that I had done extremely badly for my Paper 2... I do not want to specify the exact mark.
And just to imagine, this is actually my "lakhshanam" with tuition. I have absolutely no idea how to face Mr. Ala and explain to him how it "all" happened. I am just going to have to remain speechless and let him do the talking, I am sure he'll know what to do! He did it once for my O-levels and I have no doubt he can do it again for my A-levels. In that respect, I trust Mr. Alagarajah a great deal and even now, I cannot thank him enough for getting me an A* for my physics in my O-levels... something I never thought I was capable of. He instilled interest for the subject in me, and as I gained more confidence in my work, I began to enjoy the subject too! All the interest and confidence just flew out the window when I entered the A-level.
All the O-level post-mock memories came flooding back. I think it is a 2 to 3 day phase I go through each year before my exams. I ran into my room and I started crying, only to find that Puteri was also there crying. We spent about half-an -hour trying to console each other, in the process feeling worse about ourselves and began crying even harder. Eventually, the two of us calmed down and promised each other that we would get through the A-levels. Hehe.... thinking back, I'd say it was rather "cute", having both us crying together and sharing our sorrows with each other. That way, Puteri and I have gotten to know a lot about each other during her stay here. And I cannot help but feel that she is a part of my life, almost like a big sister, only she doesn't really get to console me when I'm upset. Not that she does not want to, but she just starts feeling depressed too! Hehe...sorry dear!
So, yes, good luck to all my fellow college-mates in upcoming exams! The real thing's comin up sooner than we think....... much sooner than we think indeed....

Mocks over!!!!!

Hey All!
It has been ages since i last blogged...
Newayz, to summarise the events of the past month, I'd have to say that nothing particularly interesting or memorable happened, except for the A-level Ball(which by the way, seems like a long-lost memory...will post about that soon)But I had mocks for AS the whole of last week, and it ended today!

Here's a brief overview:

Maths: Ok, hoped we could have the begun the exams with something besides maths... The pure maths paper was nasty. Midway through the paper, I just felt like running away and signing up for AUSMAT, seriously! By the end of the paper, I knew that my only hope for an A was to try and do better for my Statistics. Fortunately, the Stats paper was slightly friendlier. Looked throught the paper and figured it was quite do-able. But knowing me, I have great tendency to make careless mistakes, mostly because I tend to rely on my calculator too much! Like I can work out 7+5=12 mentally but I still check the answer with my calculator! I don't know why this is happening to me, even Mr. Alagarajah says I have lost a lot of confidence in my work. The reason behind this is still a mystery. I'll let you know when Mr. Ala figures out! hehe...so anyways, I was extra meticulous with my Statistics paper, frantically recalculating every single value I ended up with. I think i calculated 7x8 about 5 times until I was satisfied that the answer was 56 (it is 56 right?? sorry, its the end of exams..hehe) Lucky for me, I didn't make many mistakes for that paper, but my chances of getting an A are indeed very low.
Ok, it's not too bad, its only one subject. Can still make up for it in 3 more subjects!

Moving on to Chemistry: I think of all the papers I sat for, this was the subject for which my whining and omplaining after the exam was a bare minimum. Well, I take that as a good sign. I hope I do well for Chemistry. All in all, the paper was fair and quite balanced, and I thank Mr. Chong very much for not discouraging me in my Mocks like all the other lecturers did. Whether they meant to discourage me, I don't know, but they discouraged me all the same and that is what matters in the end. Mr. Chong is my favourite lecturer, and if there was any reason for me to do well in his paper, it is because he worked a great deal to ensure that we were prepared for the paper, and I want to show him that I am taking his subject seriously. If I don't get the results.....we'll..get to that later...

Biology: The mock paper was by far the worst I have ever done for Biology. When I entered the room and glanced at the paper, I already told myself to get ready for a C. After I left the room, it was down to a D. The Multiple Choice Paper sucked, there was no way to eliminate some of answers for some of the questions. So for most of the questions, I was torn between two choices, and two minutes before the exam ended, I took my chances and bantai-ed one of the answers. And my luck as always NEVER lets me down (sarcasm, in case you did not get it..hehe)
Structure Paper: I have absolutely no comment....I'll just let the marks speak for themselves.

Physics: My last paper...again, I hope it had ended with another paper. I do not think the questions were exceptionally tough, it ws just that i had very little time to complete all the questions. I was rushing to answer two questions at the end of the paper, and at that point, my head just stopped working. I knew I had reached the end of my tether. I had lost a total of 17 marks in that paper, which means I've already lost all my chances for an A. And to think about how the MCQ and practicals went!

It was been a terrible last week. Anyways, I just wish I would do reasonable well, so that I have chances to pull up and identify my weaknesses and try and do well for the actual exam.
I was actually on the verge of crying this afternoon after the physics paper. I really needed to talk to someone. I had worked my ass off for that paper, and I think I would have done the same if I hadn't studied. I wanted to call mom but then i realised that I had no credit! Wanted to just cry to Anitha, but she was leaving for Pyramid. But never mind, I'll just ontinue to work and see how it goes with the real exam!

Take care all!
Bye